I have since started a career in which it gives me unlimited earning potential and I am essentially the boss of myself. It's a sales job of sorts but I don't really think of it as a sales job.
I have decided to take a break from girls for awhile and focus on my career to do what I need to do to set myself up for the rest of my life. There is just much less drama in my life when I don't have a relationship to manage and I feel as though I can't devote as much time as I would like to a girl right now anyways. But, the good thing that came out of my serious relationship ending was that I sort of discovered my adult self and have been very motivated with my career and life goals ever since.
I have also set a goal for myself as far as my career goes. I want to have my own agency by March/April of next year. I know what I need to do to achieve it, it will just take a lot of work but it will definetly pay off in the end.
Career aside I have also started playing a lot of poker again. I don't know if it's due to my recent frustration with relationships but I have been playing a bunch of cards when I don't have appointments/things to do in the evenings. Basically I am doing what I need to do during the day and if I don't have a night appointment or feel as though I don't need to go out and market myself I am just sitting and playing cards for a few hours a night.
I am able to beat the game for a decent rate and made up my mind to not go out and get trashed every weekend as I will be focusing on my career and poker. I am in a really happy place with my life and think I just need to be by myself for awhile and get where I want to be, not only financially but accomplishment wise with my career. My job is very demanding of time and to have a girlfriend/serious relationship right now would just put way to much stress on my life.
For the first time in my life I just feel like being selfish for a few months, until Thanksgiving or Christmas and focus on my career and poker, in my spare time. My job takes up at least 50-60 hours a week and then throw poker into the mix in the evenings and theres another 20-30 hours a week. I just feel like this time in my life will not happen again, where I can just be selfish and say fuck everything/everyone else who I don't want to deal with.
Poker so far this month has been rewarding/ very frustrating. I emailed stars at the beginning of the month asking for them to assist me in my self-imposed chat ban. It just tilts me even more when I chat with these fish after they 2 out me, so it had to go and it's been helping out a bunch this month. I just feel like I've been on somewhat of a cooler for the better part of 40k hands or so and am ready to just feel like I run normal. I am losing every single 4bet pot I play and the last 5 big pots that I have had a set in, I have gotten sucked out on or haven't filled up
and it has cost me around $300. I know I will play out of it and am still running around 4.5bb/100 for the month so far but could be so much better, around 8-9 easily, which is where I feel I should run at $25NL.
This was one of the last hands of the night, which pretty much summed up my 14 buy-in swing today. 2.8% is the nuts to this fucking mouth-breathing villain. He even berated me after the hand saying "Shouldn't call 3bets light imo"
PokerStars Game #19674131337: Hold'em No Limit ($0.10/$0.25) - 2008/08/16 - 22:47:48 (ET)
Table 'Hynek' 6-max Seat #4 is the button
Seat 1: Dashornman ($26.60 in chips)
Seat 2: ItrR ($38.25 in chips)
Seat 3: GrindKing82 ($11.25 in chips)
Seat 4: housewouzzz ($44.60 in chips)
Seat 5: IGotTheStuff ($7.15 in chips)
Seat 6: $hipdal00t ($40.10 in chips)
IGotTheStuff: posts small blind $0.10
$hipdal00t: posts big blind $0.25
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dashornman [8s 9s]
Dashornman: raises $0.75 to $1
ItrR: folds
GrindKing82: folds
housewouzzz: folds
IGotTheStuff: folds
$hipdal00t: raises $1.75 to $2.75
Dashornman: calls $1.75
*** FLOP *** [6s Js Ks]
$hipdal00t: bets $4.50
Dashornman: raises $19.35 to $23.85 and is all-in
$hipdal00t: calls $19.35
*** TURN *** [6s Js Ks] [Ah]
*** RIVER *** [6s Js Ks Ah] [Ad]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
$hipdal00t: shows [Ac Kc] (a full house, Aces full of Kings)
Dashornman: mucks hand
$hipdal00t collected $50.65 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $53.30 | Rake $2.65
Board [6s Js Ks Ah Ad]
Seat 1: Dashornman mucked [8s 9s]
Seat 2: ItrR folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 3: GrindKing82 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 4: housewouzzz (button) folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 5: IGotTheStuff (small blind) folded before Flop
Seat 6: $hipdal00t (big blind) showed [Ac Kc] and won ($50.65) with a full house, Aces full of Kings
Here is the month so far. Figured I would post a half-way through month graph. Kinda depressing knowing it could/should be doubled but what can I do?? The big dip at the end is due to starting 2 sessions in a row on a 3buy-in downswing and still ending up a couple BI's each night.
